were true or false. He said it would help, so we went over the list of things she had said. When we came to the part about me, I told him that I was a TV, but not a HS. I do like sex-but not with her. He told me I was pretty brave to admit such a thing about myself in the State Hospital. I told him hospitalization wouldn't help me--that I liked being a TV. I finished my coffee and we talked for a few minutes about N—. I left for home, and it was just under 30 hours without sleep when I finally got to bed.

During one of my visits to N-, she told me they had discussed me in one of their therapy classes and the social worker directing the class was all for getting me admitted to the Hospital for help. He even went so far as to approach the Superintendent about it. According to N-, the Supt. advised against it unless I continued to ‘make trouble' for her.

It was about this time that I discovered Virginia's article in The National Inisder and before long I was reading my first copy of Trans- vestia. I wish I had discovered it with No. 1. I purchased "The TV and His Wife." Back copies of TVia and the Wife book have helped me tre- mendously.

I was determined to try to save my marriage when N- was released. But she would have to learn to accept me for what I am; and I hoped she would learn something from the library of TVia's and the Wife book. Just in case we couldn't, though, I dressed every possible minute; just to store up memories. If we couldn't agree, then divorce would be the only action left.

N- was released after six months; but her personality and attitude was never the same as it had been before. She kept insisting that I had put her in the Hospital just to get her out of the way. She conveniently forgot that it was her idea to go back.

About 8 months after she had come home, I'd had it and this time, I was the one who insisted she go back. She has been there almost a year this time and the Hospital feels she will be there a long time yet that she doesn't want to get well-knowing she is facing a divorce when she is released.

So, I am attempting to proceed with the divorce while she is still a patient. It is a long, hard, expensive way to go about it, but I want to be free and time is slipping away from me. I'm going on 50 years old, and Marylynn would like to grow old gracefully-fighting old age every damned inch of the way.

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